Tuesday, October 28, 2003
woa finally after so long i decided to blog again. life's pretty fun now, wif p.e.a (post exam activities) going on in sch. yesterday was a memorable day to me i guess, cuz i erm cried during e-life( ttz our religious emphasis week theme). i was very touched by tis sec 2 gal and tis pastorz testimonies tt i cried. well, seldom wld i cry cuz of religion i tink, like when we had youth camp the gals sitting around me all cried, but i was juz sitting there in a corner, looking puzzled, wondering y they had to cry, but yesterday i cried. i cld feel the sadness hovering in my mind, n i cld feel how sad God must haf felt having to send his 1 n only begotten son to die on the cross so tt we all may haf eternal life. "my lord,my lord, y haf u forsaken me?" tis short sentence stayed in my mind 4 awhile, n i tot of the numerous experiences in life in which i felt forsaken by frenz,family members, ppl. then i realised how fortunate i was, to haf God in my life, knowing tt he'll nv forsake me. i oso realised tt i haf a gd environment around me, in which i have been growing up in n i tink i shld start to b grateful.
juz remembered abt smth christopher said on sunday. consider tis ppl.. wad does a man profit, if he gains the world, but in turn has to forfeit his life? so ya, dun b so materialistic n try to seek 4 everything in the world, but instead, seek God. he is the alpha n omega, n will 4eva stand by me n u. when u r lonely, remember u still haf God. nv say itz impossible, cuz God said tt everythin is possible to him. when u r in a lost or need to seek help, PUSH! Pray Until Something Happens! ttz bout all 4 sunday.
today. today was a happy day! went to school, den had e-life again. haha tis time pastor glenn shared bout his younger days, when he wld hang out in centrepoint,(tis i dun geddit. erm y centrept? sucha borrring place!) trying to b macho, wld spend more than an hr looking in the mirror ensuring his hair is in gr8 shape.. hhaha n 1 of his experiences of trying to jio a gal.
glenn(who tot singlish was cool):ah mui ar. want to b flen or not?
mgs gal(in a brit accent): ABSOLUTELY NOT!
haha n he was embarressed by the rejection! well he succeeded sometimes tho, n wld feel flattered by the gals, when dey giggle giggle n gif him their numbers. rite. tis happens now too! y? so weird. but ttz so sad rite dun u tink? tinking tt singlish is actually cool.
well moving on to hip hop now. hip hop was so fun! after the lesson i was totally drained. my face was like tomato colour, but it was worth it! we learnt the basics of hip hop, like popping, locking n screwing. haha sounds weird ya? the tcher is an ex-gal of smss, n rachel happened to noe her too. her class was so demanding! did so much stretching n warmups till it we were like ouch here n there man! den we were taught a hip hop dance. woa man... love tt dance! juz simply love hip hop! tink i shall go n learn hip hop soon! hehe... tata!
Saturday, October 18, 2003
im tired today n im feeling sick. dun wanna blog nemore.ttz it.
Thursday, October 16, 2003
WwwwwoooOOO0000 hoo! exams finally ended today. im quite bothered bout my chinese paper cuz i din write 6 words down. ttz 6 marks. hope i can pass all my subjects. i dun wanna drop physics! yep tired. dunno wad to post up here. after the last paper we jumped up frm our sits screaming, haha. was pretty fun, wld haf been more fun if tt mdn yow din hinder us. so went out wif kiki rachie rini n bel. watched AMEN, a movie set in the halocaust period where tis guy frm ss saw how ppl were gassed (jews) n was determined to try to stop the massacre of the jews. after tt we went to take neoprints. den went to walk walk den went home.
Tuesday, October 14, 2003
yo! wassup ppl? haha sorry havent been blogging ya? cuz had exams n yesterday was studying in rachz house wif our 'tutor' alvin. to tink such a slacker like him to enlighten our queries bout physics. hmmm must b the genes i suppose. he juz needs to study 1 day b4 the exams to pass it. rite. n the whole yr juz slack. wish i was or even am liddat den dun needa study tt much. like wad rach says, itz not fair tt some ppl juz gets all the brains. haha well i suppose itz pretty true. rachz mum cooks well hehe n i shall praise her cooking in bold letters ya? AUNTIE YOKE CHUN YOUR COOKING IS SO GOOD! THE FOOD WAS DELICIOUS! sorry folks 4 the big distracting letters. yep so i studied in rachz house frm bout 3.45 till like 9. woo. tt long ya? but i tink most of the time we giggled, talked... but we did study. hmm i tink i can hire alvin as my physics tcher soon. hez great at explaining all the cheem cheem stuffs( mayb not gr8 on explaining but he makes u understand). haha n alvin watched 1 episode of holland v wif us. gr8 achievement 4 him i guess, cuz he doesnt watch chinese shows i guess. so westen oriented. had chinese n physics exams today. chinese was ok other than the words tt i din haf time to fill in, but physics was terrible. so many qns i din noe how to do.(hmm tt english sounds weird. lemme rephrase: dere were so many qns tt i wasnt quite sure how to do) n had to try n come up wif some answer. yep n boy o boy i was glad tt i borrowed alvin's tys yesterday. 1 of the qn tt i did came out 4 exam! now i can stop lamenting tt our sch doesnt set qns frm tys. hehe i hope i do well. ttz all i hope. 55 n above is good enuf 4 me. :)
Sunday, October 12, 2003
yay!! itz sunday again... i alwayz cheer on sundays i guess. hmm well i woke up pretty early today considering tt i slept at 3 cuz i was watching soccer. haha u guyz (more like gals) will probably laugh at me watching soccer rite? yep i do watch soccer occasionally. so i watched a bit of the germany n 4got wad country's match den i watched england n turkey's match. love the latter more, cuz there was more suspense. yep n i cldnt believe i cld actually last till 3 man. watching soccer. probably lasted till so late cuz there were ppl online? dunno la. but i tink was cuz i was talknig to alvin bout sports. haha quite crap. talked to him frm like wad 11+ till like 3? tv was juz beside the com so cld multi-task.
today... hmm had children min again. haha the kids were so cute! so there were 2 newcomers. 1 is jeremy.. tis pretty cute boi. haha den there was teresa. very cute oso, somemore mixed 1, haha my fav. after church i was trying to ask ppl to help me in my physics so i conveniently got ppl who were gd in physics like derek to help. den came a whole big mob of guyz trying to solve my qn. ppl like alvin, titus,aaron....... all came to kinda like chou re nao. haha yep so derek got joel(the genious) to help out too n dey solved the qn, but the answer did not coincide wif the ans at the back. nvm dun care. haha ok shall go off to slp ald... wish me all the best 4 amaths exams tmr!!
Tuesday, October 07, 2003
itz 2 days to my chemistry and history papers. dead is 1 word i can describe myself as now. i haf yet to touch any of my chemistry geography history emaths textbk or even TYS yet. while ppl like sarah yan has been mugging since... lemme tink 4 mths ago, i havent even started mugging even when my exams r 2 days away!AAAHHHHH.. i juz hope i dun fail anythin at all. tell me some1, how can i cram everythin in 1 day? tmr im not n i repeat NOT going to sch no matter wad. i gotta stay at home n mug 4 my geog chem history n emaths tmr. shall mug till 12 tonite, slp till 8 tmr, den mug frm bout 9 to the nite. abt 15 hrs to cram all tt i need to noe. Juz wish me luck.
Sunday, October 05, 2003
yay! i luurrvvee sundays. juz simply love sundays. Sabbath day. woke up, decided tt i wanted to study, den again i slacked. terrible isnt it? while others r mugging like crazy here i m slacking away. feel kinda guilty but the guilt's not overwhelming me yet, so u dun c me mugging. Den i went to church. church was fun today. haha sang songs tt i relli like, den came the interesting part. the sermon. haha actually it wasnt the sermon tt was interesting but was wad had happened during the sermon tt was interesting. During sermon derek happened to fall asleep, so ya me n rachel happened too to sit rite behind him so we were observing him sleeping. haha was relli funny to watch him sleeping cuz he wld nod towards the left n often wld b l l tis close to alvin's shoulders. me n rachel chanted down down or lower lower!! n were trying to predict when derek wld land up in alvin's shoulders. Lo n behold, it never happened, n we wld juz end up ai ya... n clenching our fists, hitting our palms. haha n once derek suddenly woke up, kinda like one wld when waking up frm a nitemare.. haha we laughed n laughed thruout the sermon, obviously quietly. den we asked if he had a nitemare n some1(4got who) pointed out tt it was tt it mite b cuz he dreamt of rachel.. haha i dun tink dreaming of rachel wld actually b a nitemare lorz. shez pretty, cute n charming n all tt. yep so the controversy in church after bible study was abt derek n his slp.. haha interesting eh? btw we got the 9 person room 4 church camp!! im so glad!! hehe ok shall end this ald... tata!
Saturday, October 04, 2003
With tears filling my eyes that i cant hold back, my eyes feels choked with the tears, that i so want to let it drip, but would not allow it to. I pray that our friendship would not end, just because of petty things. Always know that i'll be wishing the best for you, hoping you'll be happy all your life. But right now i wonder, if you really care, if you really treat me like a friend.
9:41 PM
"Is it my fault tt we're drifting or wad?" i tot as i sat in the bus, looking out of the window. I feel the drift now, n i suppose i realised it 1st, but never tried to make efforts to reconcile. Y? i tot. If only 1 person tells u tt she feels tt the 2 of u haf drifted, the blame cld b on either 1, but when 2 ppl tell u tt whoz to blame 4 it? m i trying to live in my own nutshell, shutting myself out from the world tt so ever changes rapidly? I can only say sorry 4 all the annoying or inconsiderate things tt i've done. i relli m sorry 4 it, but wad has made me wan to isolate myself is cuz of the things tt u do. I din mean to try to drift away frm u rini my dearest fren, but it juz seems to me tt u no longer use to care as much as u wld haf n were more interested in ur new frenz. So i decided to 'grant' ur wish. i wld stand in the background looking at how happy u r wif ur new frenz, hoping tt someday i'll b like 1 of em too, wishing our frenship wld b the same again. To me, it seemed like u wanted to avoid me, leaving me wif kirsten most of the time. I dunno. Mayb itz juz me. Every1 in the world is selfish in 1 way or the other, so i guess i too m selfish.
To Rachel, another of my dearest fren.
I guess as exam time arrives the tension btwn us becomes very taut again. Believe me k, i nv did or do wan to compete wif u. i did realise the drift btwn us n now i do find u a lil irritating like u find me. well, i tink it started wif u suaning eunice n me. tt was prob y i started to drift away frm u. mayb u shld b more tactful n keep certain things in ur heart. i do tink u're an excellent fren, entertaining me wif ur bimbotic actions n so on, but sometimes u relli do need to noe a lil limits. Sorry to sound like im lecturing u or smth, but i feel tt u can b relli an angel if u wan to, but sometimes kill me wif the words tt u say. sometimes i feel like crying, after being suaned by u, but i braced myself up n wld often not tear, n wld tink tt rachel wld change 1 day. she'll grow out of it. i relli cherish our frenship very much n shall we make a pact tt no matter wad we will alwayz b frenz? even if studies or wadeva came in the way we'll solve the problem ya? n i wanna affirm u tt i wld nv compete wif u cuz i will nv beat u. u r prettier, smarter, more charming than me n indeed more talented n in almost all wayz betta than me. yep tis mite prob make ur ego shoot up to like 200% but ya, not trying to flatter u or smth. but juz stating the truth. hopefully u wun make use of tis n try to 'beat' me down ya?
ok last part. i relli hope tt our frenships will eternal, n tt it wldnt juz fall liddat. i will try to compensate, but i hope u 2, will also try.
9:41 PM
yay!! hooray! i managed to "learn" html by myself!! so ttz y u guys getto c a nice blog now. to me itz pretty, but i suppose to those html pros out there itz probably smth normal. haha im relli happy wif this! i tink i needa say sorry to eunice n rini 4 copying the candy theme too, SORRY! cuz i figured out tt my templatez pretty black n i need colourful things to make it look cheerry u c. hehe happy!
Went to watch infernal affairs the prequel today wif Rini. So nice! (well of cuz. therez edison wad.) yep like rushed all the way dere cuz rini n i were in Heeren walking round. we ate in the cinema n missed the 1st part of the show, so i wanna get the vcd to watch it over n over again!(now same again, cuz therez edison!) The movie was good relli, cuz i tink dere were many veterans like anthony wong n carina lau... read tt edison actually had to "study" carina's acting style so as to compliment her. haha i liked the part where he was slapped time n time again by carina. sad i tot. n ouch. poor edison. had to b slapped so many times. the movie was quite emotional actually, n tragic, cuz many die in the movie. y do good ppl die young? sigh...
Thursday, October 02, 2003
Now i've achieved my aim of today : to evoke my emotions so tt i'll b able to write well tmr. i had a variety of emotions today. from being upset bout losing out to sarah for english by 1 MARK to being sad cuz of a tv serial to being pissed by an unknown person n den on to being touched by an angel-Rini. the tv serial was abt zheng ban qiao, but i shall not elaborate more on it other than todayz episode. his wife wanted to keep the baby even tho she suffered frm internal injuries cuz she saved her husband frm a collapsing chandelier n eventually got the internal injuries. after tt she got pregnant but was advised to abort the baby cuz it wld deteoriate her health. she insisted on keeping the baby she died wifout giving birth to the child. so sad rite? wld any1 give up her life 4 smth tt she noe wld not happen? sigh.
Den i got pissed by an unknown person. the post is still dere so u guyz can read bout it. yep skip this. jump to the next 1
Rini.My beloved dearest fren.im reminiscing abt the past.i feel nostalgic about the past, where we used to b crazy whole day n i was close, very close to u. like ll<-tt close haha get the pt rite? but we seem to b drifting apart day by day n i tink we must try to overcome tis together. mayb itz cuz of stress. mayb itz schoolwork. mayb itz our attitudes. i dunno. juz wish tt exams will b over soon n meanwhile i shall try to compensate 4 the distance we've drifted apart. i m very very touched by wad u've said rini. but im sorry, cant tink of anythin nice to say now but i shall c if i can write smth similar tmr. like a tribute to my dearest fren rini or smth haha. not trying to say u dead or smth. shall continue tmr, as emotions r drowning me now.
9:23 PM
I WAS feeling ok b4 i got online n i emphasise on WAS cuz i happen to find an interesting post on my zonkboard today. Here goes.
YOU suck: fess up man i mean, its your problem you didnt study right? so quit complaning in this stinking blog of yours!!! it sucks for ur infomation. and u?? in rjc? forget it!
Was really pissed at that person for wad tt person has said. i mean- wadeva man. I dun care who u r n wadeva ur motive is. anyway if u haf the guts to write den y din u put ur name down? LOSER. if ur motive was to try to demoralize me too bad i can only say u've failed. Badly indeed. this makes me wanna work even harder ya noe? tink i shld thank u 4 tt. Watch out 4 my future ya? n may God bless u 4 ur exams. Hopefully u'll get to score well n mayb grow out of ur immaturity. last thing. i suppose ur english's really bad. u mean face up i suppose?
Wednesday, October 01, 2003
Shit. I knew i shld haf studied for history. I shld haf listened to Rini n study history instead of chinese. Now itz over. I probably would expect a fail after all tt smoking in my essay. I did not noe wad to write at all! I Could only sit dere, in the corner of the room, grasping on to my pen, trying to remember wad i've been taught b4, at the same time trying to see how much my dear fren rachel has written. All i could tink of were the same points tt rang loudly in my brain, which i had obviously written it down long ago. I stoned. And stoned. And stoned, all this while ms ho was looking at me. Tried to squeeze out smth frm my brain n only managed to crap even more. I juz pray tt i'll pass. A pass would be good enuf for me. Fortunately my chinese paper wasnt tt bad. At least i studied it. Surprisingly, itz the 1st time i cld ever finish so much of the filling in of blacks wifout the han yu pin yin. But i wonder if dey r correct. So many wad ifs appeared im my mind today.
Wad if i din not pass my history test?
Wad if my chinese paper still failed?
Wad if i failed end of year?
Wad if i dun get good results 4 my os?
Wad if i dun get into rjc?
Wad if i dun make it 4 medicine school?
Wad if i quit sk8ting now?
Wad if my frenz left me 4 others?
Wad if i die tmr?
will anyone care? i hope someone does.
Sigh....
i guess i gotta start studying now. to those of u who havent even touch ur books, i urge u to start now. dun regret not studying enuf n end up dropping subjects. dun let wad ifs appear in ur mind. make it a pt to haf i did it in ur mind. May God bless all of u.
