LiFe: 07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
Saturday, July 31, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 10:19 PM ]
10:19 PM



wooo i've figured out a way to cure my depressions! haha through shopping! just bought a new bag today. haha it was a marvelous bargain man... hehe i'll bring it out with me tomorrow. no one's gonna be able to guess how much it is.. o anyway i wanted to get another 1 cuz the auntie said that if i buy 2 i'll get 1 free but sadly i was short of $0.40! so sad man... can imagine the sadness i felt eh? lolz ya but the good news is i told my mom bout it and she's gonna go there with me again tomorrow to buy more! woosh! i'll have 4 new bags then... grinzzz... all for just a substantial amount . can't wait for tomorrow! gonna go out with Rini to shop for people's presents.. double grins!! haha :)



Friday, July 30, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 11:56 PM ]
11:56 PM



sigh... i've fallen sick. terrible time to fall sick man. i feel bad not going to school. i feel that i've let down my teachers by skipping class. sighhhh... im troubled. why is it that the person you love will most often be someone whom you'll never end up with, and at the same time another person who loves you experience the same thing you go through. why wasn't the world created such that if you love someone that person will be with you? i sometimes want to tell *jenny that he and i will never be together no matter how hard he tries or the things he does to make me like him, because i will always treat him as a friend only. there is just no chemistry between the two of us, except that i know the person i like will probably be telling me the same thing too that we're only friends. everyone's getting attached. this is so depressing. everyone is spending time with their stead while a lonely me sits in front of a virtual medium, typing my thoughts. maybe im just more sensitive at night. wish i can reverse time and return to my childhood days, where everything was perfect and innocent. the only thing i loved was probably my doll, and i had so much free time to do what i liked. now life seems to be a routine that is boring and tiring. the reflection i now see in the mirror is of a living zombie. day by day my eye bags get bigger, and my face devoid of any colours of life. i don't want this life anymore! i want to break free from this life and seek a life i like. life is terrible right now. each day i detest going to school. i drag myself to school only to experience a series of accusations of being pompous, arrogant, stubborn and being accused of things i did not do. i hate being accused of what i have not done and each day i wake up to being confronted wif it. that is 1 reason why i took a break from school today. haha actually i didn't do my homework too so ya... can't wait for mornings to come. i used to hate the day because it is always so hot but now i guess without the sunshine im reduced to a sad, pathetic person who's groaning online....
*name changed for confidentiality altho there really is no need to...



Friday, July 23, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 9:35 PM ]
9:35 PM



juz came back from my school's 162nd Speech Day. woa... i never felt so inspired to want to do well after any speech days man. speech day to me b4 today is an event where i go n slp. surprisingly it was not the case today. i enjoyed myself quite a lot. hmmm i must say im really proud to b part of smss. i know tt God really planned 4 me not to do well in the psle to get to tis school. i love u God. cant imagine myself in any other school besides smss, where i grew closer to u thru my tchers, frenz n most imptly the school system. after hearing all the speeches n seeing all the ppl get their prizes, i felt a sense of want. i want a prize too i thought. i want to get at least 6 A1s for o'levels. i shall work hard for it. ppl if u c me online too often, pls chase me of ya? i really want to do well tis exams. i dun wan to regret like i did in p6 for not studying more n working harder. i wanna return to smss in feb n tell everybody im happy wif my results. i wanna tell God tt i've made it. i wanna do well both in prelims n in o's. God help me thru tis...



Monday, July 19, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 9:05 PM ]
9:05 PM



haiz... another bad day in school.. juz dun get wad the hell is wrong wif tt mrs raj!! whole time picking on me. tis morning scolded me for laughing at the HK xchange gals' english... like wth.. i WASNT EVEN LAUGHING AT THEIR ENGLISH!!! i was laughing cuz i was amused by their cute names like kitty n the rest i cant remember n derez tis gal who has a sis called candy, of which i haf a classmate of the same name too... wadz wrong wif it??!!! n stop mentioning i fail english all rite??!! she said" dun laugh at them cuz u failed english too" pls lor... cant u get ur facts rite b4 accusing me? u r so obviously biased against me! den u haf to shout my name again to make me keep quiet rite? wth!! cant u pick on others??!! every1 was talking lor.. y din u ask them to keep quiet? y only me?



Saturday, July 17, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 11:00 PM ]
11:00 PM



dunno wadz wrong wif me man... get easily pissed these days, yet i cry easily too. feel like im becoming a nervous wreckage.  terrible life. why do people create rules when no one follows it? im pissed, yet feeling worried n sad too. classic example of gan3 kai3 wan4 duan1 man. today was almost lifeless. probably except during english tuition where there were quite funny things happening and i managed to do quite ok for my questions.  den went to watch taegukgi. the movie was all rite. not exactly tt good but itz pretty all rite. the only part i thought was super sick was the part where maggots were crawling round the stitches of a wounded soldier. that totally revolted my whole stomach, having eaten a banditto pockett when the movie started. eeeks the maggot thing still lingers in my mind man. arrgghhh still remember the soldier puking before screaming why is my stomach so painful? followed by ppl ripping off his shirt before seeing those maggots. it gives me creeps!!! yikes. itz still sending chills down my back. super boring day. so not happening at all. i really regret doing wad i did. shldnt haf started matchmaking u 2 at 1st. shall not tok anymore bout it, but i juz hope u 2 noe wad ur limits r.. n to the gal: dun compromise wif wad u tink is not rite ok? n learn how to say no. seriously. im very worried bout u.



Monday, July 12, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 9:07 PM ]
9:07 PM



bad day.. got back our physics n chem papers. shit lor.. i got like 64 for physics n 68 for chem? disgusting!!!! to think i studied 2 whole days for each of the subjects yet i only got like a B3 and a B4? i wanna aim for A2 for physics n A1 for chem. i must do it no matter wad. y am i so bloody careless??@!! if only i've paid more attention to significant figures n units, den i wldnt haf gotten so pathetic results!! damn fed up. i wanna kill myself man. hope my other subjects wun b as bad as tis. a maths prob will fail like shit. e maths i hope i can sustain my A1. hmmm geog i pray 4 a B can ald... nv did study much, only crapped a whole lot. ehm ss n history.... errr can 4get bout passing. i hope i get an A for my chinese. i really hope i do, so i dun hafta take it again. God, help me thru tis i pray...


Friday, July 09, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 9:17 PM ]
9:17 PM



today was a day of sweetness and bitterness. was feeling quite high from OC last night cuz of tt Seth. he double dated both anna n summer, but it backfired in the end. haha sad for him, but it was super funny! i personally think seth looks better with anna than summer man! summer is like erm... right... unlike anna, who is so sweet looking! even sandy agrees with me. lolz. then the high-ness made me super tired in school today. fell asleep during history, when we were watching the rise of hitler's evil i think. it was a wonderful movie, but i just couldn't help falling asleep. just too tired. checked our chinese o's paper today. wheee!!! i got 9/10 for LC! now im quite happy, because the last time we calculated i only managed to score 7/10. bleahz i HATE MRS RAJANDRAN!!!! i quarrelled with her today during english. hello.... i know the ending of the story sucks ok, but you don't have to re-announce it in class again and again embarass me right? i beg to differ about your opinion that inferential questions only have 1 answer to it. what if the question is very vague? i told you that, but you railed at me as though you were speaking to a moron. hello... i am not a moron you know. neither is my english as bad as you think. turst you to say that our command of english is like as though we've never been to school. is that a personal insult for yourself? then we continued our quarrel. you asked if there were any comments, but you did not allow me to speak. is this the so-called democracy? or is it totalitarian system? i detest you. you did not have to mention that my class is arrogant, pompous, egoistic,and a stick in the mud, especially people like me right? i tell you this. indeed i feel that my standard of english is good enough to be proud of. even without you, my english would not be bad. you want to bet? anyway, i can sue you for personal insult you know. im just very annoyed at your approach of getting us to study. dont think that because you speak like that we'll be motivated to do well. dream on. don't keep saying that we should come back down to earth, because some of us are already on earth without you knowing. appearance is not all you know you biased teacher. don't keep mentioning about your son and how he is like us. i pity him. i would rather kill myself than to have a mother like you. you are as stubborn as i am, if not worse, so please stop being the pot that calls the kettle black. anyway, i do not care what you say. i decide whether i want to listen to you. i have a tuition teacher who is better than you anyway.

then.... after school rach and i went to orchard to meet alvin. got tickets for spiderman 2 then we went for lunch in Marche. had half a rosti and a banana crepe for lunch. the other half of my rosti went to alvin because i felt sick after eating half of it. o and he finished 1 banana for me. lolz.. haha he eats very very fast man! think 10 times faster than mike? he's like a bottomless pit la! after eating 1 and a half rosti and half a lasagne, he wasn't exactly that full. i was super full after my marche meal man. haha then we walked around in heeren till close to 4.50 then we went to watch spidey2. alvin is super funny man. think it's like my 1st time going out with only him and rach? he's super ke ai man... so we watched spidey2. was so nice! din't expect it to be so good! i felt quite sad when peter told mj that he can't be with her because of his responsibilities. wa... i was like o no... wei she me lao tian ye yao chai san ze dui yuan yang. but the ending was good. mj didn't marry that stupid space guy. i think harry is cute!! haha so is peter parker. but i couldn't understand the fusion of energy thing. should be something in Alevel physics i think. yep then after that we went to paragon for gelato. was quite broke so i didn't initially intend to eat, but alvin offered to pay for me. haha i declined the offer, but he kept asking what i wanted. i turned down many times saying i don't want it but then he was like i know you want it. you're looking at it la! i was like haha ok lorz... so nice.... shall pay him back on sunday. so pai seh to make him pay for it. now i know why he is rachel's best friend. indeed he really can be a very good listener, as well as an entertainer. haha was pretty fun to go out with rach and alvin, just that we didn't have much to do. were roaming around, always asking one another where are we going now. but was pretty fun la. then we went to pacific plaza, walked around more before going home. alvin's quite cute. 1 of the few guys who don't mind going into a swimwear shop or to roxy.but anyway he's 'gay' la so maybe that's well. haha no no he isn't. im just kidding :)



Wednesday, July 07, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 10:45 PM ]
10:45 PM



like finally exams haf ended!! whee!! today had emaths n geog paper 1. goeg was all rite but i tink e maths i cmi... sigh dunno y i was juz so blur i din c many things, which resulted in me not being able to do some qns. siggh! had o's chinese orals yesterday. tink i totally flopped it man. needed quite a fair bit of help frm the examiners to describe some words. can die la... den my reading was ermm... misread 1 word, got tangled in some parts. hahaha can juz laugh man. 4 conversation, not too bad but needed the examiner's help in describing words. haha got the topic on my view regarding porn sites, and school uniforms. not too hard, all rite so tink will pass. dun wanna get my papers back!! n i dun wanna go school!!


Monday, July 05, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 2:45 PM ]
2:45 PM



o like finally i can blog... spent the last 10 mins trying to get in here!!! haha sorry peps din blog on sat or sunday cuz i was too tired... been out the whole of sat n sunday man.. both days were super fun! like finally.. a breather from my super hectic lifestyle. went to sentosa wif rach,derek,alvin,james,andrew,jeanette n joyce lim. initially was quite boring cuz those guys played frisbee by themselves, den we were in the shade. so boring eh? but after tt it got more fun la. went swimming around, had james the clown to perform a few farni stunts, haha he was our free entertainment la... trying to sit on my rubber ball n floating on it. lolz tt farni person.. den we went tanning on the platform 4 quite some time till i became roasted! so my back's like burnt now man... oucchieee... meanwhile tanning, derek n jeanette had nothin betta to do man... went to bury 1 side of our slippers. i tot dey were burying each other's legs man... den found out when we were ashore tt dey buried our slippers. spent quite some time digging em out... super funny man.. den alvin got a lil pissed wif derek n demanded him to dig it up... so dere was a lil quarrel btwn em 2 but was quite cute man...haha i played frisbee wif the guys den we were trying out whether we cld make the frisbee go in a circular direction. wa... it involved a lot of physics man.. wif all the guys using physics theory to xplain it to me. naturally i din quite understand their logic esp since my physics sucks.. haha but at least me managed to get it going close to a circle. lolz n den we went 4 the young adult's amazing race. haha was quite fun too! expected derek n terence to come in 1st cuz dey were super chionging n damn competitive, but dey came in 3rd. my grp had chee fei n diana, n we came in 4th. not too bad la.. was quite fun wif em around. den we went 4 supper in holland v. den went home. sunday was fun too... after church i went to play pool wif rini, mike, derek, jon n my bro. wahaha can film an episode of chemistry ald man last nite. haha tink derek will noe wad im trying to say eh? ;) ya b4 tt mike was in the levi's shop n he prostated himself on the floor. the ppl dere din noe wad to do wif him man! so funny! but those stupid guyz nv tell us to go n c.... evil la... told rain* tt she n milk* got chemistry, but she juz refuses to believe la... somemore turn the table around n say derek n i were electrocuting each other the whole nite. like wad?!?! where got lor.... doesnt help if my lil bro adds tt we were very close. like where got lor..... anyhow say 1... gu yi de... haha den we went 4 supper in macs. were supposed to go to swensen's but mike suggested fish n co., but when we got dere they clsoed ald... so had to go to ps's macs. den after tt went home. woaaa.... milk actually walked rain home man! woa... scored aces ald man some1... haha

*names haf been changed 4 confidential purposes



Friday, July 02, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 10:16 PM ]
10:16 PM



wahahaha!! man... finally Mid yrs ending soon!! im super duper tired n drained out frm my exams man... been living on 4 hrs of slp each day only ever since monday. totally feel like a zombie now. fortunately went out to town wif rini today. was super fun!! ahhh nv had so much fun in a long long time! if only rach came too... den def will b crazy day man! bought a bikini from Topshop today. wa!! haha was such a bargain man! was like hmmm tink 33. used to b 56. man i hope i dun get chided by my dear mentors in church if dey read tis. bikini to them is quite taboo i tink. mayb not to tt stage, but itz not smth very legal la. haha if u dun geddit, leave it. dey will understand it. yep so the day passed wif physics exam, which i tot was not too bad! pretty easy i tink... but dun tink i shld say so early.. skully later i fail den i'll kill myself man. if i do well den i gotta thank my shi fu, Derek. really appreciate tt he made time to tutor me physics. helped me to understand a few chapters quite well. if i really do well, haha i owe u a black angus steak treat man. hmmm i tink u can prepare urself 4 it ald, since my mum says even if i dun score well she gotta thank u 4 tutoring me. =p wheee!! tmr going sentosa!! finally can dun wear my seafolly tankini tt is 2 yr old ald man... the old has gone n the new has come. a new beginning has prevail, so i shall set myself to b a nerd 4 the next few months. i need to get into RJC. i want to get in. sorry peps if i havent been updating much. haha ok continue wif todayz activities after diverting so much. haha took neoprints wif Rini. super cool machine but eh.... we cldnt figure out the machine so the neoprints din turn out tt pretty, but not too bad la. saw so many RJC ppl in town today! haha all my motivators man... made me wanna b a nerd. saw tis grp of RJ guys who r damn cute!! haha n 1 of them stays near my house. haha n RJ gals r quite chio man. no wonder i stand no chance. bleahz. haha ya n dey're quite nice. i stepped on tis RJ galz shoe n i apologised, but she juz shook it off wif a "ah no problem. itz all rite," which came wif a smiley face. haha so cool! den wa a lot happened tt i cant even remember. all i noe is i had a great time. thanks rini!! haha o actually i was a lil sad ZARA din haf the size of the bikini i really really liked!! haiz but nvm. o well i haf a TOPSHOP 1 now. :) cant wait 4 exams to b overrrr!!!!!!