LiFe
Friday, July 30, 2004
[ last edited by *celly on 11:56 PM ]
11:56 PM



sigh... i've fallen sick. terrible time to fall sick man. i feel bad not going to school. i feel that i've let down my teachers by skipping class. sighhhh... im troubled. why is it that the person you love will most often be someone whom you'll never end up with, and at the same time another person who loves you experience the same thing you go through. why wasn't the world created such that if you love someone that person will be with you? i sometimes want to tell *jenny that he and i will never be together no matter how hard he tries or the things he does to make me like him, because i will always treat him as a friend only. there is just no chemistry between the two of us, except that i know the person i like will probably be telling me the same thing too that we're only friends. everyone's getting attached. this is so depressing. everyone is spending time with their stead while a lonely me sits in front of a virtual medium, typing my thoughts. maybe im just more sensitive at night. wish i can reverse time and return to my childhood days, where everything was perfect and innocent. the only thing i loved was probably my doll, and i had so much free time to do what i liked. now life seems to be a routine that is boring and tiring. the reflection i now see in the mirror is of a living zombie. day by day my eye bags get bigger, and my face devoid of any colours of life. i don't want this life anymore! i want to break free from this life and seek a life i like. life is terrible right now. each day i detest going to school. i drag myself to school only to experience a series of accusations of being pompous, arrogant, stubborn and being accused of things i did not do. i hate being accused of what i have not done and each day i wake up to being confronted wif it. that is 1 reason why i took a break from school today. haha actually i didn't do my homework too so ya... can't wait for mornings to come. i used to hate the day because it is always so hot but now i guess without the sunshine im reduced to a sad, pathetic person who's groaning online....
*name changed for confidentiality altho there really is no need to...