Saturday, August 26, 2006
im sorry for being such an insensitive shit today. argh. im so tactless today. fogive me, and i do want to know the full story behind your "childhood ambition". haha i think you should enter the competition and i think you will win the ipod. im a coward. i dont dare to apologise face-to-face.
anyway. this is from my dear and beloved amanda who is 1000miles away in ohio.
some random thoughts and or questions that she has for me.
Questions
1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a colour that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your blog
Answers
1. when it comes to food ...its CELENA!
2. cut your hair tomboy short! hahaha.
3. orange
4. youre so cheery and fun to be with
5. when you came to church and all i know was you were a skater, which was cool.
6. A giraffe, i dont know why ah
7.can you place your legs on your head?
and yes amanda, my legs can go on my head! both of them. wahahaha
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
took this from rini's blog! wahaha. im bad? as if. once a saint, always a saint!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
im guilty. guilty of spending about 400RM on clothes today! went for retail therapy in jb this afternoon and i spent a hell lot of money on clothes! yayness! new clothes for at least 2 months i think. haha
1. 2 skorts which are suppose to fit size 14 of kids!
2. 1 satin formal skirt with lace beneath
3. 1 floral shirt from mossimo
4. 2 floral spags
5. 1 jewelled tank
6. a nice black clubbing top with studded straps
7. 2 lace spags
8. 1 embroidered flower spag
9. a silver flower black tee
10. a polo ralph lauren polo in red
11. paul frank skull tee
12. aeropostle polo
please tell me to save money! i've spent too much. haha the portugese chicken and egg tarts from Robin's are fantastic! i wanna shop somemore! should have gone earlier man...
Thursday, August 17, 2006
yay new skin. easier for the eyes now that it can be read more easily. gosh i should be studying...
5:32 PM
a startling thought roused me from slumber and i was awakened from my afternoon nap. a thought that my classmates and i discussed today- "people these days are dating for the sake of short time pleasure, fun and thrills." no longer has dating become something one does in hope that the boyfriend or girlfriend becomes husband or wife one day. instead, people retort "what?! he/she as my husband and wife?"
personally, i feel that it is important that you date someone thinking you will someday marry that person, and the feeling has to be mutual as well. i guess many are guilty of the fact that they once dated for the sake of it, and im guilty of it as well. that might have been the spark to waking me up today. although so, i must admit that in this increasingly promiscuous and open world where sexual references are made even in the most innocuous things in life, like milk advertisements, it is hard to date people thinking you want to marry that person. life these days seek temporal happiness, and many advocate the "live the moment" attitude. take the example of pre-marital sex. many fall into it not thinking about the consequences; they simply live for the moment and regret for the rest of their lives.
peer pressure, falling in love with the idea of being in love, lonliness, lack of family warmth, ... these are the reasons many give for being in a relationship. now i think it is time to create awareness in youths today, and inculcate proper moral values before the society degrades furthermore; with the current increase in STD among youths, increase in abortions, age limits for cabarets and movies and other things that reveal the "new" open society in singapore.
i can only think of one person whom i feel i can entrust myself to marry to... haha this entry feels like a gp essay!
Sunday, August 13, 2006
hmmm im glad things r cleared up now... at least im not angry now.
1:37 AM
thanks! it cheered me up and ehhh i just realised... we were both yellow. spectacular!
Friday, August 11, 2006
i cant believe it. friends i made since the 1st day of school can be so harsh and practical that they choose to ignore the feelings of others. cheating, probing and even shutting me up. to think i treated you all like real friends, i was in fact but a pupppet. if you are not guilty of what you have done, then why bother to get all worked up about it? now i know. explanations are redundant. next time i wont bother explaining. im terribly disappointed to have made such "friends". whatever man. i still cant simmer down. forgive and forget is so not in my train of thoughts now. someone enlightened me though, about perhaps why they tried to shut me; i was probably trying to cover up but no i wasnt. whatever. im still boiling.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
rapture 2006 has come to an end and im feeling sad. i felt as though i didnt put in my best effort. minor screw ups here and there. the show tonite was like a rehearsal. to some it might be a good thing but i guess i felt very unprepared. zaki can dance really really well, even with an injured ankle. his dancing made me feel emotional and recollected all the memories of SAJC Dance Society from the first practice. i vividly recalled the first practice in malan, right up to the end of the broadway item.
jap item was nice, but the technical details were a little off so we had to dance around the lanterns. i was 1 count slow for the middle part but o well i think it looked sequencial so it was ok...
wahhah next item was made in singapore, and the crowd loveeeedd it because it was hilarious. ah bengs, bimbotic shoppers, office workers and road sweepers, models and all. hmmm didnt do anything wrong in this dance so was pretty pleased!
andrea's item was not bad!! it was a fun but tiring dance for me and our room, ie heon, jacq, cheryl n ann all agreed that it was the most enjoyable dance! i got blur after made in sing though, and went to change to my cheongsam. something like that never occured to me before man! when i realised it was andrea's item instead i sprinted all the way back to the room. lucky the room was only 8 secs run away, but sadly i was at the other end of the stage.
corinne's dance was quite shitty for me i think. my heels were wobbly and i tripped. then my cheongsam buttons popped. but after that, all was well. im grateful to God for keeping me calm after that man...
broadway was woohooo great!!! everyone smileedd their utmost best and many liked the item a lot! after that was the presidents' dance with zaki. it was so so so nice! the past 5 years' presidents and zaki danced to a melancholic song and i think that item easily could have been one of the better items because alll of them were so technical and full of expressions. no wonder they were presidents.
anyway, dance has come to an end for me and the studying must start already! missing the dancers now already...
Thursday, August 03, 2006
blah. today's rehearsal was really bad... dont know what went wrong with me.. kept going off blocking and kept doing stupid things... i feel like slapping myself for not producing results despite trying. terribly upset by what zaki said today too. i didnt skip rehearsals for nothing. i was sick and i had service learning. har. you probably thought i just wanted to skieve. dance sometimes is cruel such that they make people imitate machines. you cant fall sick, you cant have something on when there are rehearsals. i didnt wish for it to happen either right? anyway, i don't know whether to feel sad or happy that dance is finally coming to an end for me. i need to stay focused. i am such a letdown. blah. i wished i didnt join this concert. if it doesnt turn out well, it'll be my fault. whatever. may tomorrow be a good day i pray.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
thump. the sound of my heart skipping a beat ricocheted through my body as our eyes exchanged glances. brief as it was, it was sufficient to impact the rest of my day. a seemingly hopeless wait though. my left brain says do not be stupid. it will never happen, but my right brain says go for it, at least confess and not regret. haha i have no idea what i just typed. looking forward to esplanade! 3 days to rapture and the end of slacking and using dance as an excuse not to study. hungry but i have no appetite to eat. blah. hot holicks in my tummy feels cosy and warm, but im still hungry. someone deliver me something nice to eat! i want an answer, but im afraid to face it. blah. argh. totally incoherent things but whatever, im plain tired.
