Thursday, August 03, 2006
blah. today's rehearsal was really bad... dont know what went wrong with me.. kept going off blocking and kept doing stupid things... i feel like slapping myself for not producing results despite trying. terribly upset by what zaki said today too. i didnt skip rehearsals for nothing. i was sick and i had service learning. har. you probably thought i just wanted to skieve. dance sometimes is cruel such that they make people imitate machines. you cant fall sick, you cant have something on when there are rehearsals. i didnt wish for it to happen either right? anyway, i don't know whether to feel sad or happy that dance is finally coming to an end for me. i need to stay focused. i am such a letdown. blah. i wished i didnt join this concert. if it doesnt turn out well, it'll be my fault. whatever. may tomorrow be a good day i pray.